Another day without my medication for depression. Yet again I am feeling overpowered by the commands from the voice, and yet another day where I feel I can’t pull myself out of my personal abyss of depression. It’s a cold, dark and lifeless place in which any form of light has trouble in seeping through. It’s a darkness that I don’t think I will ever get out of without taking my medication.
Even then, if I was to resume my medicine usage, I will still be aware of that darkness and emptiness that lives within me, and which cannot be tamed...
Twist the teats for more
I’ve decided to extend my little experiment of not taking my anti depressants. I’ve got The Killers playing in the background, and it’s rather uplifting. It’s catchy, repetitive, derivative, and yet it still has a sort of luring appeal. Perhaps it;s the bland and simple lyrics that make the whole thing work, but it’s not infuriating me or annoying me in any way. It’s not going to be my therapy, but I’m glad that I’ve found something that I wouldn’t normally be into to appeal to me. It’s either me lowering my standards, or I’m in a vulnerable state that...
Twist the teats for more
Another day without my antidepressants, and I am continuing to feel very depressed. I can’t pull my head out of this limiting and controlling illness. I feel so sick as well. If I eat till I’m full, I start to suffer from nausea, it could just be a stomach bug. However, it’s been like this for nearly two or three weeks now, and I don’t seem to be getting better.
Once more I’m limited and restricted to staying in my bed because getting up or moving around, like typing on the computer, is really making me feel as though I’m going...
Twist the teats for more